Attraction I don't understand it.

Attraction I don't understand it. 

It's not something you can prove with theories or evidence. It's a much more complex. Discovering what makes you attracted, can be along road which can lead to utter confusion. The circumstances and all the fragments involved are just too complex to analyze. But I would really like to get to the bottom of this.

Haven't you ever wondered what you see in that person that others don't? Why do you see it ? While others ignore it, or find it just plain ugly? Human's are far from complicated. There isn't a word to describe it. My best guess would be entangled. 

What are we entangled in? Emotions, dreams and fantasies. I blame hollywood for that. All of it. They made us believe that, true love is like a fairy-tale. Then shutting us down with reality.  There is no such thing as true love. 

I have a friend and for the sake of this scenario i shall call her 'Case X'. She is currently obsessed and infatuated with this boy. Who hurt her =(. Which i don't understand why? He isn't anything special. He isn't smart nor witty. Nor wouldn't do an interlectual thing to save his life. I know thats all interlectual and you can't and should not judge someone for being stupid. However his dress sense and hair style should be shot. His hair is ratty and messy. However she likes all these aspect and they make her want to date him more. Honestly i feel this boy should count himself lucky. but he has no clue someone loves him this much. Which is what makes him stupid. 

I guess that leads me on to taste. Everyone's tastes are just plan different some people honestly like dipshits. I don't know why. But we are all guilty of falling in love with a dipshit once in our lives. Some people however don't learn and keep repeating this mistake. 

Humans truly are stupid. 

Love and intelligence should not be used in the same sentence. (Even though i just have, to prove a point) NO ONE is too smart for love. You can be the smartest guy or girl on the planet yet still be nieve and ignorant when it comes to love. 

Like i know of many shallow girls whom only go after the pretty boys. These are the friends you know wont aprove of your boyfriend. Even though you utterly love him. Because of looks.  Looks. Do they really matter. Who decides what is ugly and what is hot? Are we saying God creates ugly people. When everyone was created in Gods image.

I tried once to understand my own attraction. When i was trying to help my friend understand hers. However i failed to comprehend why i liked the guy. Even though i tried so hard to analyze it. Or maybe i knew why i liked him but couldn't bring myself to admit it.

It all came down to the process you go threw which aches your brain. Its an endless battles with yourself. Knowing you can do better. Being angry at yourself for not wanting to. What's worse is knowing your ignorant for liking them. Especially since you know deep down they're not dating material. But you overwrite all intelligence and want to date them regardless. Which is the stupid part because at the time that honestly feels like the logical answer. 

The worst part is after knowing all that you need to know to convince yourself otherwise. Its like your too stupid and foolish and fall in love with them anyways. 

I avoid love these days. I figure its better to keep my intelligence. (Iv been there done that and it made me rather nieve. Im still trying to gain some brain cells back.) Because the both can't co exist. If you in love your stupid. As i said before no one is too smart for love.Once its got you. You can feel your brain cells turn to mush. But by then your powerless to take control of your emotions. Meaning you fall into the unknown.

I guess this is why many people choose one night stands over relationships.  They can seem logical as they give you the feeling of love, but you keep the brain cells. Because you invest no emotional attachment. 

Because love only makes you foolish when you actually care. 

It's like hooking up with a random stranger at a club have you ever noticed how easy that can flow. Compared to when it really matters. Yet, when you with the person you want to the most, its like a barrier gets put up. An unknown fear. A tension. And yet even though you want to you can't go no further. However when it comes to a complete stranger you can just walk up to them kiss them and make out. Because in all honesty they mean nothing to you.

I guess all things considered should we really live in the fear of love? Fear of the confusion and messed up emotions. Why would anyone want to be in love? Seems illogical.

But being human we repeat and make the same mistakes over and over.

Mmmmmm

Loves the sandwich lolly made her last night mmmmm do yummy =D.


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Blogging app on iPhone

Testing this new blogging app. "Blog anywhere and any time" is aparantly the point of it. But I honestly have no clue what to blog about today lol. The only thing I'm thinking of currently is that I'm finally making a YouTube clip after so long thinking about it. I just need to aquire all the quotes I'd like to use and make Photoshop images. Maybe I'll add some hidden messages as I always do. Test one add a picture. Sucess :)


Test two add a video. Sucess

But now where is the publish button ??????? Found it lol - Posted using BlogPress from iPhone

I GOT TAYLOR SWIFT TICKETS AND YOU DONT HAHAHA

From reading title of this blog alone, I'm sure you can guess the highlight of my day by now. I acquired Taylor Swift tickets for her upcoming concert in Melbourne at Rod Laver Arena. :)

Now who can I take... maybe hrrrm .... a charming, fit young male around about 21 years old. Does anyone know anyone like that? Nah jokes the tickets defiantly Azz's, he is a massive Swift fan hehe.

THE WEEKEND

Fri night:

The weekend pasted, was one of the best weekends yet. On Fri night I went to the movies with my mate Steve. Everything went really well, apart from the fact we couldn't return to the car. Since they closed of the shopping center. I'd like to say that was the least unlucky thing that happened but it wasn't. After i dropped Steve off home i got lost and got pulled over by cops. But a fun night never the less.

I then went to pick up Aaron at Pow........

PICKING UP AARON

You will see why this deserved to be in red in a minute!

I found him drunk. Enough said.

I figured this out because it took him around about 2 minutes to work out how to get into my car. lol. When he finally got in, he threw his hat off on my dashboard and yelled 'DAMM this hat!' Mind you he loves that hat.

Then the lil one then wanted Maccas. So as a best friend does, i drove past maccas and i got him a double quarter pounder and chips. While i ordered he yelled out to the lady's 'Your damm sexy' and when i told him to 'shut up' he replied 'Relax it brightens up their night'. I was so embarrassed. That i got the food and drove off as fast as i could.

In a matter of 30 seconds of obtaining the maccas i hear 'Ohh nooooooo! My chips! THREE SECOND RULE, THREE SECOND RULE!.' Yes he managed to drop the chips all over my car. However he picked them and continued eating as you do. Until we reached the next intersection and 'Arrghhh my chips' He dropped them again. lol. At this point i told him to be carful with the chips. But before i could finish my sentence he managed to drop them again. Three times man.

Then he demanded Gatorade so i stopped at the nearest petrol station. I decided it was easier let alone faster if i just paid. As he wouldn't let me count his money for him. 'I can do it'..... yeah right.

Then just crusing down the freeway out of the blue Aaron yells 'My hat my hat what happened to my hat. I lost my hat.' I had to assure him he hadn't lost his hat and that it was just in my back seat. Now you would think after all of that it would be a straight ride home from here on out. He got his maccas and his Gatorade what more could go wrong? But no think again. We got like 5min down the road and 'I feel sick stop the car is yelled out' so i pulled over in the next street in hoppers. Aaron almost falls out the car, when he tries to exit. But then he was ok kinda... after he went to the bathroom. Cause he yelled out to the word 'im going to take a wizzz look away LOOK AWAY'... man i hope it wasn't on someone's flowers.

The rest of the drive home was practically normal with the random conversation..... When we got to the house Aaron threw up apologized and yelled 'Get me some salt quick' he ate the salt like it was going out of fashion. The salt helps with dehydration apparently. After around about an hour sitting outside i tried to convince Aaron to go inside but he didnt want to. He said 'No! Let me sleep out side for a bit' but i forced him up and directed him to the theatre room.

I went to set up the bed so he could sleep. While he was throwing up and really dizzy. But when i tried to convince him to get up off the couch and lie down. He fighted against it saying 'No let me sleep here..... i'll feel sick if i lie down'. I gave him around about an hr of resting and tried again, but he still wouldn't budge. So i left him there asleep with his legs crossed and his hands tucked into his socks. I ask myself why i didn't take a photo. lol

In the morning at 7am i was woken up with 'Where am i?' and 'How did i get here?' when Aaron realized the shock of where he was and how he slept.

IF I HAD A VIDEO CAMERA, I WOULD HAVE WON FUNNIEST HOME VIDEOS

Sat night:

Annemaries 21st birthday

Saturday night was defiantly a highlight to my weekend. I had so much fun. It was Annemarie's 21st birthday. Aaron came with family and i to my cuz's 21st.

I spent the whole day excited, that i get to spend time with my cuz Jenelle and finally meet her fiancé Shaun. When Aaron met them he could understand why i was over excited. They are like fully awesome. And they thought we where fully awesome too:) I'm very much looking forward to hanging out with them in the future. :) If you want to know more about what happened Saturday night id refer to Azz's blog. But you don't have that link so too bad lol...

Plus i feel my blog is way better anyways.

Lets skip fast forward past sunday >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

Because no one really cares about work.... after all its only coles.

Which brings me right back to today. And the fact i'm writing this blog in class shows my extreme boredom as I’v also added colours and fonts.

Pretty much this class i only wrote a 400 word story which if say so myself is pretty shit. You can read it if you like. i personally wouldn't.

"Perfection is of the essence. This was the only thought that kept rushing though my mind the whole time. I could hardly focus. On anything at all; as I looked out the window on to the sunshine hitting the footpath, I knew I wanted to be out there and run. Run as fast as I could away from the situation I was about to encounter.

Just then, the call for five minutes was yelled out; my heart skipped a beat. I was by no means ready for this. I could feel the tension in my muscles build up slowly. Creeping up on me like a case of the nerves which you cant control. I took a deep breath and tried to calm myself down, ignoring my surroundings. But I somehow couldn’t help but notice the fast pace of everything around me.

The realization that everyone in the crowded room was all here for one thing and the reality was we all weren’t going to get in. There will be winners and losers in this reality. I wanted a placement at the ballet academy more than I anyone could imagine. As I knew nothing other than ballet, I spent most of my life practicing ballet, training three hours a day plus for 15 years now I began dancing when I was two, when my mother first enrolled me into a ballet class.

The thought of not doing ballet in the future scared me, as I have no knowledge of other things. Ballet is my life and the thought of trying something new was far to terrifying to even imagine. ‘Olivia Perenatini your up’ the lady called. It was my turn now my whole future dependent on how I danced in the next five minutes. There was no room for error or bad days. No excuses were tolerated it was now or never. I could feel my heart beat so hard and fast I could barely take it.

As I walked into the interview room introduced myself to the teaching board and gave them my CD. I could feel that their eyes judging me hoping I was making a good impression. I said ‘my names Olivia and ill be dancing some contemporary ballet that I choreographed to Elisa-Dancing’. Then I closed my eyes and waited for the music to start instantly taken over. My worries instantly flushed away, the nerves non-existent anymore. Dancing put me on an incredible high where I didn’t care about the world around me I was dancing for me."