I care because?

Latley I've been doing a lot of thinking, which is a dangerious past time indeed. Spending countless hours thinking why some people deal with situations with ease. Yet others seem to not handle the same situation quite so well. Annoyed I was to discover that why is such an obvious answer that I already knew the whole time. Grrr. But the reason I looked past it was because the solution/answer is barberic, insane and horrible. However, no matter how horrible it is the saying is true, the person who cares less doesn't get hurt. Straight to the point but very true. Something I learned from experence. I guess that's the one thing that gets to people the most. Knowing. Knowing, the other side doesn't feel the same. Knowing you care so much while the amount they feel is inadequate compared to you. That's the part that sits in your mind, the constant wondering, why it doesn't mean as much to them as it does to you. Now we have identified the problem how do you stop caring? You plain and simply can't if you do. These days I tend to avoid admiting it if at all possible. I kick myself when I admit to it. Because it shows great weakness. Like playing chess and setting up your pieces to lose. No one starts inteding to lose. But emotions, well they fuck up any game play. I once lost my best friend in year 7. She wanted to hang out with this bitch who thought she was a witch. I believed she was a nut case. I told Vanessa that she shouldn't hang out with her. But she told me that our friendship was over after a massive fight. :( That killed me because I realized I cared more when I was going crazy without her and she was happy. I would not stand for that, no one is stealing my best friend without a fight. I got so angry that I turned the entire year 7 year level against miss ugly so that Vanessa could see that Rebecca blackywalker was fucken evil. And I'd do that any day for her. She still remembers that. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone