21 days and countung

21 days and counting

Twenty-one days!

There is only 21 days till my 21^st Birthday! I can barely believe it.

Its amazing to think that in 21 one days it will be the first day of the rest of my life.

All the things I’m going to plan to do to make it a memorable year.

Where is that fat bastard? LOL

Santa failed yet again! (Stolen from Annieh’s facebook status) lol. I guess I can’t really blame the fat bastard I didn’t even know myself what I really wanted for Christmas. But when I see it ill know and be like that’s it. I guess I don’t know what I want because I didn’t let marketing influence my wants and needs in anyway. Well at least I tried not to. Regardless Santa should have known, sensed my hearts true desire and brought it to me. Stupid fat man last time I trust you. lol

Overall Christmas was quite a good day all the only gifts received from all the relatives were money and chocolates, way to make me feel old. I guess I still love unwrapping presents. It's not the same with money and plain envelopes but you know the Wog's that’s what they do. Money only money. I had a really relaxing day otherwise. (Yawns) Ok bedtime was like 3hrs ago and i'm falling asleep lol

LOL i noticed i say lol a lot and i'm not actually laughing.

I can’t tell you what I want for xmas because I’d end up on the naughty list for sure

Apple magic mouse

Angels and Demons Illustrated Edition

Subwoofer (make music in my car cool)

Avatar tickets for Imax

Catch me if you can DVD

I love Enigma puzzle books

Mac OS X Snow Leopard (which yes i should already have)

Apple tablet (iPad) when it comes out i'm getting it

Watercolour tablets

honestly

I found this quiz on the Internet and couldn’t help but waist 3 mins of my existence on planet earth.

Honestly, what’s on your mind? If I told you i'd have to kill you. lol

Honestly, who is your best friend? Aaron

Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? Yes my alter ego the person I strive to be.

Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time? People oblivious to truth.

Honestly, what makes you stressed out? Not having a definite answer to a problem I encounter.

Honestly, are you keeping a big secret right now?Everyone has secrets some are better left unsaid.

ke$ha - take it off

The song thats stuck in my head at the moment.

feed back plz

Brain Drain

I was reading my old journals yesterday. When I had a realization. I honestly believe I wrote better stories/journal entires in terms of content, grammar and punctuation back in 2006. When i was obsessed with maintaining a diary. Which got me thinking did I get stupider?

Have you ever had that funny feeling, where you think you are getting stupider day by day? Is it just paranoia or is it actually happening?

One minute you think you know everything. The next you realize you don't know anything at all. I’ve been trying to comprehend why this feeling occurs. Maybe being smarter comes with the knowledge there is more to know. But if that was the case why does the feeling mainly occur after a holiday/ rest period. The true question to be asked here is, while the brain is resting, does it lose brain cells?

Letting your brain rest seems like a good idea yes? But its how much rest and what type of rest we give our brain, that determines it’s functioning and getting back into action after this rest period.

It’s some how similar to attending a week of school. Feeling you learned utter non-sense. Where as if you didn’t attend, the following week you would feel lost behind and confused.

I tend to find I feel stupider after the summer holidays. Feeling that some how the time away crushed and destroyed my prior knowledge. Maybe it’s just a normal human feeling. To fear getting stupider; it definitely overwrites thinking you know it all.

I have no idea where I’m going with this post so I’m going to quit!

Hugs not drugs

It started with hate

Smack bang into denial

Progressed to acceptance

Slowly moved into friendship

But ended with love

But I fear it will eventually turn back into hate.

Too many people suffer from bad addictions everyday.

Stop the production and sale of drugs.

Don't do drugs.

Remember. Hugs not drugs.

People come, they visit, then they leave. Doesn't feel like prison at all.

It will be one week since my nose operation tomorrow. Yet im already going crazy. I guess i never realized how much I went out, until i was forced stay home. It's not people's company i miss the most. It's the feeling of not being able to go out.

I feel I am about to crack and break down. I honestly don't like the idea of being trapped. Not being able to walk down the street. It's like I'm under house arrest. People come, they visit, and then they leave. It feels strange seeing them leave knowing, they have their freedom while I’m stuck in this box. I don't like it one bit.

I’ve decided to find constructive things to do with my life. To ease the stress tension, but it doesn’t seem to be working very well.

• Create a design folio BOOKMARKS to apply to intern for hardie grant. (So far so good need to print and layout my bookmark designs on good quality paper. Which i can't do till i can go to office works)
• EDIT blog posts ✓
• WRITE new blog posts ✓
• FIX my childrens book story grammar and combine with the picitures. (So far iv done about 40% of it. But im not 100% happy with it.)
• RESUME ✓

OLD DIARY POST

Re-reading my diary from the past. I found this post.

I believe i was obsessed with diary entries.

Have you ever had a connection with someone. Where being in the same room as them is too much and you have to leave. Talking to them becomes almost impossible, as words can't be constructed into sentences. Your heart beats faster. You feel intensely overwhelmed that you just want to run because its too much. And you know they have the same reaction. But you are too scared to admit it to them, as there is a fear of getting hurt. So you wake up every morning for the rest of your life wondering what if? And if you will ever feel that intense again? It never goes away.

Knowing you said no when you should have said yes.

TOASTED SANDWICH CHAMPION

Yes its official i have too much time on my hands. I'll admit that!

BUT this bookmark not only is visually appealing and very inviting. It also serves another purpose by having visual recipe for how to make the best toasted sandwich ever.

The recipe was stolen from my best mate Azz. But i guess thats fair enough since the bookmark is for him. LOL

Another bookmark :)

Another quick bookmark i made in photoshop i dunno what's wrong with it yet. But I'm still not quite happy with it.

Katies bookmark

This is the bookmark i made for katie. :)

I rather like it. =D

why can't i sleep :( ?

Friday that just passed will change my life forever. Well it feels like it will.

I had a nose operation, to correct my sinuses and breathing passages. Which have been giving me bad headaches for years now, but had gotten worse all of a sudden. I sit and think a life without headaches OMG amazing :) Also to add to my excitement i got my nose straighten in the same procedure. YAY no more bump.

I was a little nervous prior to the operation. Ok lets back track to before the event hrrm.... i guess Azz would say extremely on edge would be more like it. But who wouldn't be? The doctors are about to break my cute little nose.

But overall it all went great. I may look a bit beaten up, but i feel fine. I am still smiling. (refer to the pic)

It's not all so bad staying at home. i keep myself entertained I'm making bookmarks in photoshop which i rather enjoy :)

I can't wait to see what it looks like without the bandages. =)

My best friend :D

My best friend Aaron =D Has a great sence of humor, he always knows what to say to make me laugh. Even if he doesn't do it on purpose it just happens. =D He is one of the most loving and caring people I know, who has a kind heart who cares to help out anyone in need. The other is vanessa :) He is an extreemly loyal friend who I can rely on and is always there for me. But sometimes can be oblivious to social aspects of human interaction around him. But he's working on it :). That's what I think anyways. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

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