21 days and counting
Twenty-one days!
There is only 21 days till my 21st Birthday! I can barely believe it.
Its amazing to think that in 21 one days it will be the first day of the rest of my life.
All the things I’m going to plan to do to make it a memorable year.
Santa failed yet again! (Stolen from Annieh’s facebook status) lol. I guess I can’t really blame the fat bastard I didn’t even know myself what I really wanted for Christmas. But when I see it ill know and be like that’s it. I guess I don’t know what I want because I didn’t let marketing influence my wants and needs in anyway. Well at least I tried not to. Regardless Santa should have known, sensed my hearts true desire and brought it to me. Stupid fat man last time I trust you. lol
Overall Christmas was quite a good day all the only gifts received from all the relatives were money and chocolates, way to make me feel old. I guess I still love unwrapping presents. It's not the same with money and plain envelopes but you know the Wog's that’s what they do. Money only money. I had a really relaxing day otherwise. (Yawns) Ok bedtime was like 3hrs ago and i'm falling asleep lol
LOL i noticed i say lol a lot and i'm not actually laughing.
I found this quiz on the Internet and couldn’t help but waist 3 mins of my existence on planet earth.
Honestly, what’s on your mind? If I told you i'd have to kill you. lol
Honestly, who is your best friend? Aaron
I was reading my old journals yesterday. When I had a realization. I honestly believe I wrote better stories/journal entires in terms of content, grammar and punctuation back in 2006. When i was obsessed with maintaining a diary. Which got me thinking did I get stupider?
Have you ever had that funny feeling, where you think you are getting stupider day by day? Is it just paranoia or is it actually happening?
One minute you think you know everything. The next you realize you don't know anything at all. I’ve been trying to comprehend why this feeling occurs. Maybe being smarter comes with the knowledge there is more to know. But if that was the case why does the feeling mainly occur after a holiday/ rest period. The true question to be asked here is, while the brain is resting, does it lose brain cells?
Letting your brain rest seems like a good idea yes? But its how much rest and what type of rest we give our brain, that determines it’s functioning and getting back into action after this rest period.
It’s some how similar to attending a week of school. Feeling you learned utter non-sense. Where as if you didn’t attend, the following week you would feel lost behind and confused.
I tend to find I feel stupider after the summer holidays. Feeling that some how the time away crushed and destroyed my prior knowledge. Maybe it’s just a normal human feeling. To fear getting stupider; it definitely overwrites thinking you know it all.
I have no idea where I’m going with this post so I’m going to quit!
It will be one week since my nose operation tomorrow. Yet im already going crazy. I guess i never realized how much I went out, until i was forced stay home. It's not people's company i miss the most. It's the feeling of not being able to go out.
I feel I am about to crack and break down. I honestly don't like the idea of being trapped. Not being able to walk down the street. It's like I'm under house arrest. People come, they visit, and then they leave. It feels strange seeing them leave knowing, they have their freedom while I’m stuck in this box. I don't like it one bit.
I’ve decided to find constructive things to do with my life. To ease the stress tension, but it doesn’t seem to be working very well.
Location:Davidson St,Reservoir,Australia
Attraction I don't understand it. It's not something you can prove with theories or evidence. It's a much more complex. Discovering what makes you attracted, can be along road which can lead to utter confusion. The circumstances and all the fragments involved are just too complex to analyze. But I would really like to get to the bottom of this.Haven't you ever wondered what you see in that person that others don't? Why do you see it ? While others ignore it, or find it just plain ugly? Human's are far from complicated. There isn't a word to describe it. My best guess would be entangled. What are we entangled in? Emotions, dreams and fantasies. I blame hollywood for that. All of it. They made us believe that, true love is like a fairy-tale. Then shutting us down with reality. There is no such thing as true love. I have a friend and for the sake of this scenario i shall call her 'Case X'. She is currently obsessed and infatuated with this boy. Who hurt her =(. Which i don't understand why? He isn't anything special. He isn't smart nor witty. Nor wouldn't do an interlectual thing to save his life. I know thats all interlectual and you can't and should not judge someone for being stupid. However his dress sense and hair style should be shot. His hair is ratty and messy. However she likes all these aspect and they make her want to date him more. Honestly i feel this boy should count himself lucky. but he has no clue someone loves him this much. Which is what makes him stupid. I guess that leads me on to taste. Everyone's tastes are just plan different some people honestly like dipshits. I don't know why. But we are all guilty of falling in love with a dipshit once in our lives. Some people however don't learn and keep repeating this mistake. Humans truly are stupid. Love and intelligence should not be used in the same sentence. (Even though i just have, to prove a point) NO ONE is too smart for love. You can be the smartest guy or girl on the planet yet still be nieve and ignorant when it comes to love. Like i know of many shallow girls whom only go after the pretty boys. These are the friends you know wont aprove of your boyfriend. Even though you utterly love him. Because of looks. Looks. Do they really matter. Who decides what is ugly and what is hot? Are we saying God creates ugly people. When everyone was created in Gods image.I tried once to understand my own attraction. When i was trying to help my friend understand hers. However i failed to comprehend why i liked the guy. Even though i tried so hard to analyze it. Or maybe i knew why i liked him but couldn't bring myself to admit it.It all came down to the process you go threw which aches your brain. Its an endless battles with yourself. Knowing you can do better. Being angry at yourself for not wanting to. What's worse is knowing your ignorant for liking them. Especially since you know deep down they're not dating material. But you overwrite all intelligence and want to date them regardless. Which is the stupid part because at the time that honestly feels like the logical answer. The worst part is after knowing all that you need to know to convince yourself otherwise. Its like your too stupid and foolish and fall in love with them anyways. I avoid love these days. I figure its better to keep my intelligence. (Iv been there done that and it made me rather nieve. Im still trying to gain some brain cells back.) Because the both can't co exist. If you in love your stupid. As i said before no one is too smart for love.Once its got you. You can feel your brain cells turn to mush. But by then your powerless to take control of your emotions. Meaning you fall into the unknown.I guess this is why many people choose one night stands over relationships. They can seem logical as they give you the feeling of love, but you keep the brain cells. Because you invest no emotional attachment. Because love only makes you foolish when you actually care. It's like hooking up with a random stranger at a club have you ever noticed how easy that can flow. Compared to when it really matters. Yet, when you with the person you want to the most, its like a barrier gets put up. An unknown fear. A tension. And yet even though you want to you can't go no further. However when it comes to a complete stranger you can just walk up to them kiss them and make out. Because in all honesty they mean nothing to you.I guess all things considered should we really live in the fear of love? Fear of the confusion and messed up emotions. Why would anyone want to be in love? Seems illogical.But being human we repeat and make the same mistakes over and over.
From reading title of this blog alone, I'm sure you can guess the highlight of my day by now. I acquired Taylor Swift tickets for her upcoming concert in Melbourne at Rod Laver Arena. :)
Now who can I take... maybe hrrrm .... a charming, fit young male around about 21 years old. Does anyone know anyone like that? Nah jokes the tickets defiantly Azz's, he is a massive Swift fan hehe.
THE WEEKEND
Fri night:
The weekend pasted, was one of the best weekends yet. On Fri night I went to the movies with my mate Steve. Everything went really well, apart from the fact we couldn't return to the car. Since they closed of the shopping center. I'd like to say that was the least unlucky thing that happened but it wasn't. After i dropped Steve off home i got lost and got pulled over by cops. But a fun night never the less.
I then went to pick up Aaron at Pow........
PICKING UP AARON
You will see why this deserved to be in red in a minute!
I found him drunk. Enough said.
I figured this out because it took him around about 2 minutes to work out how to get into my car. lol. When he finally got in, he threw his hat off on my dashboard and yelled 'DAMM this hat!' Mind you he loves that hat.
Then the lil one then wanted Maccas. So as a best friend does, i drove past maccas and i got him a double quarter pounder and chips. While i ordered he yelled out to the lady's 'Your damm sexy' and when i told him to 'shut up' he replied 'Relax it brightens up their night'. I was so embarrassed. That i got the food and drove off as fast as i could.
In a matter of 30 seconds of obtaining the maccas i hear 'Ohh nooooooo! My chips! THREE SECOND RULE, THREE SECOND RULE!.' Yes he managed to drop the chips all over my car. However he picked them and continued eating as you do. Until we reached the next intersection and 'Arrghhh my chips' He dropped them again. lol. At this point i told him to be carful with the chips. But before i could finish my sentence he managed to drop them again. Three times man.
Then he demanded Gatorade so i stopped at the nearest petrol station. I decided it was easier let alone faster if i just paid. As he wouldn't let me count his money for him. 'I can do it'..... yeah right.
Then just crusing down the freeway out of the blue Aaron yells 'My hat my hat what happened to my hat. I lost my hat.' I had to assure him he hadn't lost his hat and that it was just in my back seat. Now you would think after all of that it would be a straight ride home from here on out. He got his maccas and his Gatorade what more could go wrong? But no think again. We got like 5min down the road and 'I feel sick stop the car is yelled out' so i pulled over in the next street in hoppers. Aaron almost falls out the car, when he tries to exit. But then he was ok kinda... after he went to the bathroom. Cause he yelled out to the word 'im going to take a wizzz look away LOOK AWAY'... man i hope it wasn't on someone's flowers.
The rest of the drive home was practically normal with the random conversation..... When we got to the house Aaron threw up apologized and yelled 'Get me some salt quick' he ate the salt like it was going out of fashion. The salt helps with dehydration apparently. After around about an hour sitting outside i tried to convince Aaron to go inside but he didnt want to. He said 'No! Let me sleep out side for a bit' but i forced him up and directed him to the theatre room.
I went to set up the bed so he could sleep. While he was throwing up and really dizzy. But when i tried to convince him to get up off the couch and lie down. He fighted against it saying 'No let me sleep here..... i'll feel sick if i lie down'. I gave him around about an hr of resting and tried again, but he still wouldn't budge. So i left him there asleep with his legs crossed and his hands tucked into his socks. I ask myself why i didn't take a photo. lol
In the morning at 7am i was woken up with 'Where am i?' and 'How did i get here?' when Aaron realized the shock of where he was and how he slept.
IF I HAD A VIDEO CAMERA, I WOULD HAVE WON FUNNIEST HOME VIDEOS
Sat night:
Annemaries 21st birthday
Saturday night was defiantly a highlight to my weekend. I had so much fun. It was Annemarie's 21st birthday. Aaron came with family and i to my cuz's 21st.
I spent the whole day excited, that i get to spend time with my cuz Jenelle and finally meet her fiancé Shaun. When Aaron met them he could understand why i was over excited. They are like fully awesome. And they thought we where fully awesome too:) I'm very much looking forward to hanging out with them in the future. :) If you want to know more about what happened Saturday night id refer to Azz's blog. But you don't have that link so too bad lol...
Plus i feel my blog is way better anyways.
Lets skip fast forward past sunday >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Because no one really cares about work.... after all its only coles.
Which brings me right back to today. And the fact i'm writing this blog in class shows my extreme boredom as I’v also added colours and fonts.
Pretty much this class i only wrote a 400 word story which if say so myself is pretty shit. You can read it if you like. i personally wouldn't.
"Perfection is of the essence. This was the only thought that kept rushing though my mind the whole time. I could hardly focus. On anything at all; as I looked out the window on to the sunshine hitting the footpath, I knew I wanted to be out there and run. Run as fast as I could away from the situation I was about to encounter.
Just then, the call for five minutes was yelled out; my heart skipped a beat. I was by no means ready for this. I could feel the tension in my muscles build up slowly. Creeping up on me like a case of the nerves which you cant control. I took a deep breath and tried to calm myself down, ignoring my surroundings. But I somehow couldn’t help but notice the fast pace of everything around me.
The realization that everyone in the crowded room was all here for one thing and the reality was we all weren’t going to get in. There will be winners and losers in this reality. I wanted a placement at the ballet academy more than I anyone could imagine. As I knew nothing other than ballet, I spent most of my life practicing ballet, training three hours a day plus for 15 years now I began dancing when I was two, when my mother first enrolled me into a ballet class.
The thought of not doing ballet in the future scared me, as I have no knowledge of other things. Ballet is my life and the thought of trying something new was far to terrifying to even imagine. ‘Olivia Perenatini your up’ the lady called. It was my turn now my whole future dependent on how I danced in the next five minutes. There was no room for error or bad days. No excuses were tolerated it was now or never. I could feel my heart beat so hard and fast I could barely take it.
As I walked into the interview room introduced myself to the teaching board and gave them my CD. I could feel that their eyes judging me hoping I was making a good impression. I said ‘my names Olivia and ill be dancing some contemporary ballet that I choreographed to Elisa-Dancing’. Then I closed my eyes and waited for the music to start instantly taken over. My worries instantly flushed away, the nerves non-existent anymore. Dancing put me on an incredible high where I didn’t care about the world around me I was dancing for me."
The Grampians camping grounds are astounding from the wonderful views combined with freshness of nature, provides for a really relaxing and amazing experience. Which can be enjoyed all year long with families and friends. It seems to be one of Australia’s amazing untouched destinations; there are a lot of sites to see and explore. The sites are all free to explore and the views truly amazing, located 30 minutes from the peaceful Victorian town of Halls Gap. It’s approximately three to three and a half hours drive from Melbourne towards Adelaide. Over a three day and two night period my friends Adam Peter Rebecca and I explored and relaxed in the beauty and serenity of nature, at the Grampians.
DAY ONE: We all got up bright and early before the sun and headed to our which we packed night before. We took one pit-stop stop McDonald s for breakfast and then hit the road for our long journey; we began our drive listening to It’s a long way to the top (if you wanna Rock’n’Roll) followed by the rest of the 80’s tracks and where all singing along the whole way.
We arrived in the town of Halls Gap at the bright hour of 9 and drove the rest of the way down the windy roads past elephants back towards our campsite on old mill road. We began to set up camp which seemed more like a race of whom could set up the tents faster the Wogs (Pete and I) against the Aussies (Adam and Bec). Setting up the tent proved to be more difficult than we imagined or could have anticipated. Peters tent was too complicated and in the end required all four of us to work out its engineering, however in the end it all worked out and was set up correctly after about four attempts we where fifth time lucky.
With camp all set up and the car free from congestion we started the day with a small hike down to see McKenzie falls. The hike was around about 2k return hike down hill and stairs; which for the first day proved to be a slight challenge but we all survived. The walk to the falls was rewarding and changing on its own it had great views and stops to look at along the way so the destination didn’t seem too far away. When we finally reached the falls the freshness of the air and the smell of nature took my breath away it was then and only then I realized I was away from civilization and truly got the chance to begin relaxing. The sound of the waterfall hitting the lake in combination with the fact it began to spit rain made me feel like I had no care in the world. I was truly serine. After McKenzie falls we decided to call it a day and head to the shops to pick up fire food for the night and head back to camp.
At the campsite that night while Pete whom I believe is the undiscovered Jamie Oliver began to work on dinner, myself Adam and Bec enjoyed the little luxuries of reading and playing on Nintendo DS. Adam and Bec where relaxing away on a hammock while I decided to set up a rug and read under an umbrella which seemed to be a very relaxing idea to me. However I found it a little hard to focus on my book due to the fact Adam kept reading his aloud since I am convinced he knew it annoyed me. After reading three chapters I decided to help Pete with dinner (even though I just wanted to continue reading in the tranquil environment where I was so stress-free) the others agreed that we should help Pete out with dinner and where soon to follow. As I got up and walked over to the cooking area I heard a bang followed by scream aarhh ouch… I turned around to see what happened and saw Adam lying on the floor in pain and the hammock disconnected; the rope had snapped and he ended up on the ground unlucky landing on the only twig sticking out of the grown surrounded by soft lush grass. However all I could think and say was ‘omg Adam my iPhone was in your pocket if its broken I wont be happy’ Nightfall came quick that night and the campfire started I insisted on reading with a flash light till I couldn’t stay awake anymore by the fire. That night I felt like I got hardly any sleep I laid in my sleeping back listening to nature while it poured out side. The sound of the rain relaxed me so much that I drifted into a peaceful sleep.
DAY TWO: Wake up time for day two was bright and early 7:30am. I could hear Pete’s voice saying ‘wake up bella its time to get up’ however all I wanted to do was roll over and go back to sleep but I knew id be dragged out by the others. After bacon and eggs for breakfast the day began jam packed with activities. Which on the way too we used Pete’s car’s sunroof to stand out on and feel the wind in our hair, which was a truly amazing experience. Reids lookout was first on our list and it had the most amazing over view of the campsite and town. Standing on Reids lookout looking out at the mountains makes you feel like you’re on top of the world and you can fly and do anything.
We then headed to the Balcanies which is another amazing waterfall that the water falls to the ground and just disappears and doesn’t leave a lake or puddle it just hits a pile of pebbles and leaves. Bec and I sat and admired the view while the boys set and dangerously climbed the mountain to get on top of the waterfall. While still at the falls we dared Pete to bathe under the waterfall, as it looked remarkably peaceful, however to our surprise his high pitch tone when he entered made us aware that the water was freezing. However we all thought it hilarious and I got it on videotape. On the walk back to the car from the hike Adam managed to hurt himself yet again by racing Pete and not realizing why Pete was slowing and he began to speed up to over take and was going to fast to turn the tight corner and ran into a tree which he managed to snap. OUCH was his reaction, he said he has a tome stone now ‘in memory of my nuts’
Mt difficult was next on the list for that morning being the last activity before a late 3:30 lunch the hike to mount difficult didn’t prove to be too difficult actually however rather fun and adventurous climbing over trees which had fallen due to the fires (which covered the back of my pants in charcoal) and the boys throwing big rocks over the edge of the up coming cliffs to see them smash into pieces. When we arrived at mount difficult looking at the shape of the mountain reminded me of a claw due to the way the rocks where positioned. The boys where also very daring on this mountain cliff. Climbing and exploring the most dangerous parts, which are specify not to be entered. It was funny though as other tourists took there picture most likely thinking they where nut cases.
By this time in the day our stomachs where rumbling so we rushed back to camp as fast as we could and began making a barbeque with sausages and bacon which was absolutely delicious. After lunch we decided to take a break and hangout at the campsite till dinner. Pete decided to take a siesta and the rest of us to our own activities. (Adam and I choose to read our books while Bec decided to play DS) It was too cold to do any of these activates out side so we sat in the car with the heater on for a while. However after about half an hour the true camp sprit started as Bec and I devised a plan to tie Adam to a tree however with many failed attempts to catch him we both admitted defeat to him. All this running around and chasing seemed to have woken Pete up, only to join in our fun and then the competition was truly on; as races started. The first race was carrying the girls on their shoulders and running from point A to B, which Pete and I cheated on cutting out half the race just to win. And the second and final race was piggy backing the girls from point A to B, which Adam and I won fair and square.
After having so much fun running around it was already for dinner, which we planned to drive to town and eat at the local restaurant in halls gap. The food was amazing and the atmosphere very country but not western. It was the pine and neutral tones used in the soundings that gave that affect. Dinner went by so fast it was already time to drive back to camp, but everyone was too tired for a campfire that night we had packed a lot into our day and we all went to bed around 10pm
DAY THREE: The last thing we went to discover before we went home was Beehive fall which was only by accident as we where looking for the other bush walk path but couldn’t find the turn off. The walk to beehive falls the walk didn’t prove to be as interesting as id have hoped it was purely path and trees that seemed to be never ending for about 2ks but the over all result at the end truly amazing. We ended up staying there for hrs just admiring nature. While at Beehive falls I stole Pete’s shapes and ate them all before he got back from exploring the top of the mountain waterfall. In all honesty from the amazing caves to explore to the spectacular waterfall with rocks to climb we really did save the best site for last; beehive falls was truly astounding. Knowing it was getting to late and that we had to leave for home, we said goodbye to the lovely waterfall and slowly headed back to camp, to pack up everything and head back home to reality.
When campsite fully taken down and the car was finally packed we realized our remarkable weekend of relaxation had come to an end and we stopped got lunch and drove home in silence. Exhausted from the weekend and miserable that we had work tomorrow.
I would recommend the Grampians camping grounds for anyone wishing to go on a camp and have an awesome adventure but I suggest going for longer as you won’t want to leave its serine environment.
Just a children's story i aim to publish one day
Deep in the forest of Africa there lived a baby lion cub named Liony. He loved to play and roll around in all the wild flowers and chase rainbows. He was such a humble lion whom would never hurt anyone of anything. He just wanted to be friends with other animals but according to the great legends he was not aloud to He was destined to be king and all others to fear his presence.
Liony didn’t want to believe this legend. So one day he set off on a mission to find some friends, he didn’t want people to fear him; he wanted them to love him. He dreamed of this for such a long time where he could be a part of the group and join in the games.
On Lionys mission he first came to Gira the baby giraffe, whom was so scared to see the lion she ran away into a bush and refused to come out to play, until Liony was long gone. This made Liony feel a little sad but he had hope that someone would play with him.
So he continued on his journey, he walked past the big caves where he saw to baby hippos swimming Hippa and Hoppo they where twins. Liony thought the game they where playing looked liked fun so he jumped in but as soon as he jumped in they screamed and jumped out, and left Liony all alone and wet.
Liony Began to think maybe he isn’t meant to be friends with others, and maybe he really is the bad guy, and maybe his job is to scare all the other animals, and he began to sigh and decided to walk home back through the forest.
While Liony walked through the forest his sobs and raw’s of sadness could be herd as an echo. Which scared the monkeys hiding up in the trees, and they began to through sticks nuts and what ever theycould find to scare the predator away But all Liony wanted to do was play.
As Liony ran and ran as far away from the crazy monkey and from everyone as he possible could so no one would see the tears in his eyes While Liony was running he couldn’t see with the tears in his eyes he scared Eleyla the baby elephant whom ran into the small cave in great fear of the lion but didn’t feel so scared when she noticed the lion wasn’t even following her.
Liony stopped to catch his breath and rested on a warm rock and cried “why do all the other animals hate me? I have never done anything wrong to them. I just want to make friends” Eleyla head Lionys cries and decided to go tell all her friends that Liony was nice and he just wanted to be friends and play in the flowers.
When all the others herd that Liony was just trying to play, and be there friend they felt really bad for how they had reacted and excluded him because he was a lion. So they went up to Liony and apologized and asked if they could start over and be friends and play.
Ever since that day, all animals in the jungle have been good friends. And they lived happily ever after.
If there was a time machine id go back in time. Id put a rewind on life; to a time when my friends weren’t fighting. I love all my friends and its very hard for me to see them fighting. I think its all my fault and there isn’t anything I can do. Even if people say the situations where inevitable but how true is that really?
While I sit and watch them all fight while drinking my latte pretending nothing is wrong. Imagining and hoping that one-day it will all be merry again; knowing that’s only a fantasy. If only…
I fear some day ill have pick between them. Or maybe it will happen naturally like falling out of contact with someone. Every weekend I feel the same pressure who do I hang out with I feel like I’m being made to choose a side, when I’m clearly not. Most people would love the idea of choice between friends to hangout with but I clearly do not.
My one and twenty birthday is coming up soon and I hope it all blows over by then. Mum says they all have to come along and get along for one day for me. But I see it more as a dream than a reality.
Good evening, ladies and gentleman.
This is the place I go to talk about important issues. But be far warned that I know not more now than I did before. An important announcement has been brought to my attention. Which needs to be brought to your attention. As I have now acquired the Iphone and it is all its cracked up to be and more. I recommend this wonderful product and more from the Mac range.
I bid you a due XOXO
Within the last couple of weeks which have come to pass, I have decided to acquire the iphone is a have pretty much every other apple product. I am very excited and I am preparing my macbook for this spectacular event by updating my itunes, with lyrics to every song. I am also fixing my address book and iphoto applications, so my iphone works perfectly. I must go xoxoxoxo
To my dear self,
Within the few weeks, which have come past, I have spent many hours of my day thinking .I am not myself. Maybe I just have high standards or maybe whom I want to be. All I know is that I used to be reliable and I don’t feel that I am anymore.
I used to get frustrated at people for ignoring and not returning my emails or calls but I turned into one of those insensitive personal. And it scares me. As this is not whom, I want to be. I want to be the girl whom answers all the calls and go back to being the girl whose mission is to keep in contact with all her dear friends. However lately my concern is that I have been really careless, sluggish and in my own little world and i am truly sorry to all my friends whom I haven’t contacted that feel left out. But I plan to make more of an effort with everyone. To do this I believe I need to use my day planner to make sure this happens and not double book events.
I feel much better now that I have written this blog letter.
Love from Sabrina Midiri
